What is on my mind? A plethora of things, truly. A platter of events presented in life with a blend of sour and sweetness. This is my first time penning thoughts and emotions after the pandemic! A trauma that has mended the world in various ways. A human mind began thinking differently after that I guess. Everyone, almost everyone I met changed, shaped in all kinds and forms. I lived in a house that was located in the upper floors of a skyscraper. Bolted and home ridden like everyone of us, lest the virus attacked me. They say, what doesn't kill you, makes you only stronger! That is true, my life always have been a learning through struggles and practices. I am not someone who absorbs theories rather learn practically. Why am I saying this, cause this phase of 2 years or close to 2 may be, was eventful filled with changing perspectives, introspection and meditation.
Afternoons are my favorite, as I just mentioned very meditating. It is the time when the sun is high above and the brightest time of the day. Soaking in the afternoon sun can accumulate melanin in tropical skin, and usually humans here tend to shy away from getting darker, but I love marinating in the afternoon sun. Located in the upper floors, I was fortunate to witness the world's hustle through a broader lens. Wait! there was no hustle at all. The world just remained silent and ghastly for so many days. Arrested inside like the animals are caged in the zoos, was a phase of cultivating perseverance. Seated in my balcony, I enjoyed and absorbed the afternoon sun, the rays would penetrate through a coconut grove nearby and would brighten the neatly mowed lawn beneath.
The faraway hills stood obediently, slowly watching the air to get cleaner and less polluted with time. The shops corresponding to my house never opened for days, a few opened though, but a low temperament through out. People fought for their lives, some fought for peace, some for food, some didn't know of the crisis at all! Minds changed to be more thankful for little things, for the very life we have and the only purpose of this life is to remain happy! What a beautiful realization, after a humongous event that affected the lives of millions. Minds began to be more humble, reach and help each other, ignoring every emotions otherwise. These only emotions existed were: thankfulness, gratitude, humbleness, helpfulness and humanity! The greatest learning of the phase was, that any happy emotion is permanent, anything negative is temporary! people fight, hate each other, envy but all for a brief period of time. They forget them eventually and the only emotion that ever exists is love, kindness and happiness. None ever hated anyone forever, people tend to forgive and forget but the game of ego exists and one chooses to not be tender towards another person.
As I observe the road that stood still dusted and silent, I delve in my thoughts of a mind and a heart that spoke so differently this time. It whispered only positive thoughts and energized me to get going everyday. I missed the hustle, the honking of cars, the carpenter's saw, the mechanics welding, people hustling in the market and much more! We do never pause and care for such hustle otherwise, but when something stops a fine day, we tend to miss that terribly!
Another emotion, a follow up emotion that we do take our lives very granted! The blessing of this Universe, the sunrays, the flakes of white clouds, the air we breathe, the pair of lungs that support you breathe seamlessly, everything! the food we eat, the help we get very easily, the money we make may be! People we love, and love that finds us home! We all took a pause, may be in an afternoon, thought through these or may be not, but we changed by bits and perhaps if not anything, we take a moment now and choose to be happy, enjoy life, take that break, prioritize humans over anything else, prioritize life over everything else!
As the afternoon slides to the dusk, the evening and onwards to the night, the rusted sun sets just to promise a brighter morrow, life moves on! But this time hearts filled with lot more gratitude and tenderness and lot more forgiving and rectifying minds in play!
